Tenant

TENANT

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2013-09-01 22:25 Sunday

Chapter 1

There is a lot of confusion here about "The First of July 2013," the most in my head.

Saw a lot of hidden paranoia in some sentences of talks around and I know that I have a paranoid schedule of appearance in some of my writing-tries sometimes.

“Help the pore”, “war”, “differences between pore and rich” became phrases without meaning to me, there is no more such stuff. The cold war ended, and the Berlin wall crashed. The crises appeared. I remember that Hitler wrote his manifest in the year 1925 and the crises came in 1929. The worst news was those about Somalia hungry children. UN sent food but local soldiers didn’t let the humanitarian help to them, the food stood, I saw the TV picture, a few kilometers far of the starving people.

I do not watch the news to inform myself, but because I want to learn about people and nations. Lately, I even concluded that maybe I just want to write and write therefore maybe I became a passionate writer, no matter how good or bad I am. I need to do that.

Everything would be as usual if they didn’t said that there are some big projects in the world and I mean really big projects that need a lot of gold, a lot of expert brain action and a lot of negotiations. That means peace. Not peace like there is any war but peace like agreement among everybody in the world. Therefore, I do not believe the news. I do not believe in that “small quarrels” that media serves.  

“To make a state” and “to have a state” means to me “to destroy” because the state is a parasite which takes money for her self, makes the rules that nobody need and makes big projects. It kills family, tribe and nation when in the same time we are all nationalists. Blood is not a water, but blood is not blood any more. It is a chemical weapon.

There are some who control almost everything, but they have nothing under control. It is like you are in the middle of a rush hour and you are not patient but surviving somehow. In such a moment I need to pee. That is because I drink a lot of water. That reminds me that I still have a body and liquids in me, juices and blood.

There are many moments when my heart jumps. That is because of love and happiness. What is really real reality? The whole me and my works, but I do not work much. Therefore I have to write at least and I have not much power.

What do people do, do they work or destroy? They have to create but they are not creative and they put the energy in the thought that they are doing something and they have names for what are they doing such as: I write, I surf, I eat, I pay, I play games, sports or have sex, I read news, I sleep bad. Somehow people really just watch what will happen next. 23:53

Chapter 2

Thanks, Jesus. Thank you for the life of writing. Thank you for the water and thank you for my illness.

My desire for creating makes of me the sinner who needs and wants food, money for food and bills, some body experiences and I smoke to much. I even do not walk enough.

I am not created to be a consumer and biro crate. Still I live all my life like one. Tried to get know the nature and physical work but you stopped me. Now I hardly can try to do that again, but there is a possibility. Yet, there is a bigger possibility that I have some other gifts. You put me in the position of a describer who explains the man what the other man thought when he said something. Perfect. Perfect for you and me, but what with my surroundings, your beloved creature, do they have use of me? It is like I will never know that because I feel like I am not well come in this world. Only, before it bothered me and now is the opposite, I know that I live for you and because of you. That is good for me. Now, who am I to be well? Who am I to be so lucky? 2013-09-02 0:16 Monday

Chapter 3

It seams the world is for living. It seems the man is to be the man of the world. In paranoia, the world is for man. The man has only to watch the signs of age and the signs of the ages. He has to read the signs of time.

The one thing is the development of a computer era and the other is development of spirit. To be aware of reality is good, but to be aware of everything what mind can think and live is to have a spirit, to live a real spiritual life which includes every way of life. In the other words, the spirit of the man includes the whole world, the God is that who gives the man every single thing and every single person because God wants the development of a man, not the development of the world. 

The Bible is for the man. Imagine, the whole that inscrutable wisdom only for you and your life. It seems like there is nothing big about Scriptures, but the people who explains the Scriptures. It is not like that. The Scriptures are for the living man, whether he is biro crate or soldier.

I started this essay on Sunday. God says that the men should not work Sundays because he has to celebrate his glory. The people do not work on Sundays, but some of them rarely celebrate Jesus. Many of them celebrate God with their work.

Every single man has to know something from Scriptures. Every single man has to try to read Scriptures by himself alone. 0:54

Chapter 4

People often destroy. God repairs everything. It is not the matter of the world. It is about the single man that communicates with Jesus and read the Scriptures how the people run the world.

People were believers when Jesus came down among them. The baby in the mother is believer.

People were destroying Jesus when he walked on the Earth. The man often destroys from the birth.

Jesus suffered because of the salvation of every single man and died because of him has risen and walked again among people. When the man repents to Jesus, the man does not destroy but creates.

When Jesus went to his Father in heavens sent the Holy Spirit. The man creates because he has the gifts of Holy Spirit. 1:19

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