Early morning
thoughts (from the essay)
2013-09-15 Sunday
5:44 hardly I was going to sleep this night and hardly I awakening. My eyes are
hurt and tired. I wasn’t slept enough my fingers hurt me so I could not sleep
in one piece. I need fresh air and water.
One of my sons
asked me why the refrigerator is not closing well. I answered that we were
opening it on force and now it cannot shut sometimes. It reminds me of me. I am
too boring and too honest about my self, but it is only for the measures of the
world and not for Holy Spirit.
I am sure about
my salvation, I was really tortured in mind and other and now I see there are
some persons which torture me. I got practice in being quite and peacefully let
the people walk over me.
The dream repent
it self, people were doing the various things by the same pattern over and
over. Suddenly I found how to escape and be individual and than I finally woke
up. May be I will find a solution how to behave like I am what I am without
much suffering. This thought came from my Witness. Perhaps dream was not
unknown to him either.
He is saying me
like this, he is my messenger from the Lord, but may be it is my guardian angel
– girl, she could be a messenger also. That is true, that is not only my
thinking which is not real, how could somebody prove me it is not real? I am
not hurting anybody, I only experience spiritual forebodings and they are real.
I have no imagination and yesterday I told to my self that I really hate
imagination. Kids are telling the truth when we are saying that they have big
imagination. How could they learn such things? They are living they lives for
real. Mind is real, too. To do the thinking means to live also. Thinking is
happening and we wonder how could it be, but the table is moving and we do not
wander how can it be because we see that the table is not moving; but atomic energy
in the wood is real, only we proved that and spirit you can prove only with
proper concluding where you telling the truth, that if you know at least the
part of the truth which is to big and absolute therefore we cannot see the
truth objectively, only the part of the truth.
Because Jesus is
Truth, he showed us how to know Him, how to talk with Him and gave us His
Spirit to tell us about Him, the Truth. Definitely imagination we see like a
“good and nice lie” and lie cannot be so. That is the truth. The lie cannot be.
If the children are telling stories that are nice and we do not understand
them, but saying that is good although we do not understand, that is not
unreal, the children are cleverer from
elders because they have more possibilities to develop and the elders are
stopping that and interrupting that with laugh, saying that kids are lying. How
monster! 1509 6:39
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