Lost in Silence

When the forces start to move they become forces.

They have something that pushing them. It can be spirit what starting forces. It is a will to attack, a will to take.

You can meet that spirit forces all the time.

The spirit force that acts like a gentle wind which you have to catch, that is Holy Spirit. He does not want to take anything, but He is a big force and as small as a hunch. You cannot always see Him, but when you are concentrated, you will see Him as a target that moves, comes and goes before you catch Him.

The force of Holly Spirit you can see in good works, but you do not know what the good work is. There are many spirit forces who are telling you that they are making good works. They only try to disturb you to concentrate on Holy Spirit. If somebody give you the food or the good advice, if somebody save you in a very big fear and danger, it is not already a good work. If that somebody leaves you alone after he helped you, you will see the work of Holy Spirit. If somebody helps you and in the same moment he is asking something from you, that is not the work of Holy Spirit.

Sometimes it last years to see the force of Holy Spirit. You, for example, live thirty years with your family, mother and father, and than you start on your own. Your parents die. You go on living and as much as you growing older you see that your parents were the good force. That is the good work of Holy Spirit.

When you do the humanitarian works, it is not always such a good spirit work because that work does not help properly but formally. Holy Spirit never fails.

When you know that somebody helped you and you are the only one who knows it, do not try to give the help back because you cannot till the time comes when you repent and become a better person. That only you know only you and Holy Spirit.

Forces that want to attack and to take are everywhere.  12:40

I met a girl who never could eat if not offer to the all others in the first place. It was inconvenient to her to eat in front of people her conscious was not in peace while she started to eat. Some of the people around were eat a minute before her and the others were eating after, but nobody was eating in that moment. She was like that every day. She always asked everybody one by one does he want to eat some of her breakfast. She was boring, she was not polite. There were no hunger around, there was a lot of food for everybody, but there was no time much to eat, we have to work fast and eating was by the way. It bothered me because I thought that she does not really want to give the food, but was so persist because it was the custom to give somebody bread if you have some. The worse was that she thought that she is very good person because she was giving bread to everybody. I asked my self would she give the bread in the lack of food, would she share what she has for herself. Once I found the money she lost and gave her. She did not say thank you. That was very long ago, but it is a good example.

Am I the same in my customs, do I think that I am a good person?

I am trying to give my pore knowledge on the website, hoping that God will do something with my words and posts. I ask everybody.

What I am angry of is that following the customs. People think that they are good persons because they follow the customs that are only signs how the person can become good person. Does that person do good work?

Is not the person who does such things the person with restless conscious? That is it. People do not have a peaceful conscious.

Some of them imitate the customs. They are calming down their conscious. Conscious you can never calm down if not look into it. The point is that we talking to our selves that we are in general good persons and all we do has to be good. That is a logical mistake. Once we can be good and do good thing, but mostly we are destroying the world and blaming somebody else for that. That is because we are not able to see the differences between good and bad works. Only good spirit can do good works and it is going and flying around in the way he wants and not in the way we want, BUT IF WE KNOW THAT HE IS THE PERSON WHO IS ALMIGHTY GOD AND WE DO WHAT HE WANTS, WE BECOME  A LITTLE BETTER AND HE THROUGH US IS DOING REALLY GOOD WORKS. THAT IS LOGICAL, VERY LOGICAL. 14:42

The Organization of United Nations does not have the will to put her will under the will of the good spirit. They send the food and politely ask people not to stop the food that has to come to the hungry people. I think they cannot do anything and that somebody is sending the armed people into the war against people who do not want to live and eat in peace. That is priority to them. We explain that they are not good people and we do not even ask why do they want to make war, what are they trying to say. I understand that food has to come to the hungry people, but I am sure that the tools that are not good do not justify that purpose. Therefore, the way that UN is reacting on the war is not good in general. Nobody wants to know the warriors better. Why are they always in war and why that wars are so wild? Nobody knows. Nobody wants to know because it is easier to say that we are good boys and they are bad boys. We are the same. We all are people that have to put their will under the will of good spirit. The point is that we do not know what is good. We thing that we have to follow the customs and that we are good persons, we done all we could. Good spirit knows better. He is the best. He can do much more. 2013-10-23 15:00 afternoon (from the essay “Light Yellow Roses”, pg 62).